Keeping Faith in Yourself – A letter from the editor .

“I have an idea!” “I want to make something happen. I want to change the world. I want to leave my mark.” I said that all the time. But how do I do that? How do I make this actually happen? I plan and I do what I have to do to make it happen.

Clouds – 2019
ADE Interview – 2018

Easier said than done right? It is. It is hard to keep the faith in something you’re truly passionate about. I remember being a senior in college talking to one of my professors about starting a magazine. Around that time, it was only an idea and I didn’t fully understand what went into starting one. I felt discouraged and I wasn’t even sure about what I wanted to include on my platform. I took courses in school about what it means to become an entrepreneur but I couldn’t even really put my efforts into fully learning the process, because I didn’t have a set idea I could base it on.  However, there were a few things that stuck with me when I did pay attention in class. He gave us a list of things to remember when starting your business.

  • Success isn’t always a guarantee. You are bound to fail. It isn’t because you’re not doing a great job, it’s because most startups fail in the beginning.
  • You have to pay attention to who your audience is. Remember who you are talking to.
  • You will have times where you’re down on your luck but if you’re passionate about your idea, you will risk everything in order to get what you want.

I listened… it stuck with me. I didn’t realize the importance of these things until it actually began to happen to me. It didn’t hit me until I was extremely broke and I spent my last $12 on something I needed for a project for HAVE. It didn’t hit me until I had my first anxiety attack in 4 years because I was so unsure of whether or not I was going to get my platform done in time and whether or not I was going to actually succeed. For a moment, I stopped believing in myself. I started wondering if what I was doing was really going to work.

2017 – SUITS Shoot

Photo by Barry Daly

All of my friends kept telling me the same thing. “If it was easy, it wouldn’t be worth it. I started chalking up my nerves and depression as a part of my success journey. It was the chapter in my story where I was battling the huge demon lord, the Demogorgon, and I was near the end wondering whether or not I was going to let him slay me or was I going to overcome this obstacle and go out fighting. In this case, my Demogorgon was my anxiety, depression, money problems and survival as a whole.

However, the more and more I completed projects, the more confident i became in completing this platform. However, it still wasn’t easy because of how fast life moves for you. It wasn’t until I started receiving messages from individuals I didn’t know telling me how they felt inspired by my journey that I realized what I was doing was impacting the people around me. My reasoning for creating an online platform was not just for me. It was for the people who were going through the same things as me. It was for the men and women who were felt as though they weren’t good enough or didn’t know where to start in the next stages of their life. It was for the people who didn’t have support but needed an avenue to figure out where to start in their voyage to becoming an entrepreneur. It was for the next generation of movers and shakers. By that time, I realized that I had to keep the faith in myself not only for everyone who was counting on me to succeed, but for me. And how?

Maria – 2019

How do you keep the faith in yourself? Well it’s simple. Easier said than done… but simple. You stop and you ask yourself, “Is this going to make a difference in the long run?”. If the answer is yes, then keep going. If you’re truly passionate about your project, whatever that may be, you’re going to fight. You are going to work and you will not look back. The only time it is acceptable to look back is to understand your mistakes and reflect on your journey.

I’m still on my journey. I am still keeping the faith. Sometimes it’s hard but the support of others and the journey to healing your scars push you to keep fighting for more. The process never truly ends until you reach the final battle and slay the monster standing in your way. And by then, your story has reached its happy ending.

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